My Superman (Who Art Thou?)

So many times,
Have I asked my myself this.
So many times,
Have I longed to see
Your innocent face, sweet glimpses, simple gestures
Heroic acts…of love.

Who’s my knight in shining armor,
who will defend me by his shield
My Romeo,
who will even face death
My Soul,
who will eternally grace my heart.

who’s the man that I’ll be
sharing my whole life with?
who’s the one that will answer
my happily ever after wish?

I want to wait..
yet I want to see..
the one..
who will my make heart go beating
even though it melts
His romantic deeds that will seize
every chance the world starts singing
the one who will save my heart from bleeding
the one that will make every moment
a sunset scene.

Superman, who are you?
I know you have no mask
but just flying somewhere
above the clouds,
I wanna know, who really is
the man behind your superhero suit.

My Superman, I can wait
in time, when our roads meet
whether will it be on land,
we’ll gonna be together
or even over the clouds,
we’ll gonna fly forever.

Sweet Summer Salad

Wow! Look at that! Hey wait a minute, the first two pictures are acceptable but I think not for the third. I thought I wasn’t eating salad of any kind. So what does salad has to do with my post? We got to know…

I guess the above pictures is the perfect illustration of how I feel this season. Oh yeah, now I get it. The reason why I picked salad for this post is because of its vibrant character – very colorful, lively and cheerful. All of these (pictures) are a mix of sweet, delightful, and a high-spirited vibe, a perfect description for them.

I love to share this significant feeling with you. What I feel right now is not just for the summer but for all the past seasons my life had enjoyed, struggled for, and learned from. It’s a wonderful adventure for me that I am what I am now because of all the great experiences I had treasured. Just like the scent of the sweet, the summer, and the salad. And I feel so grateful for the beautiful people that I’ve met and the beautiful things I’ve known.

Life, like a bunch of dessert, brings sweetness to those who have the courage to live it. Life, like a sunny day, produces heat just enough to make us feel the warm love of the Lord, and the sweat inducing obstacles, of course, make a person healthy. And like the features of a plate of salad, life certainly is full of a variety of ingredients just to be tasted, enjoyed and appreciated. All these are essential to suffice meaningful life. It may not always be a festivity and it’s sure it isn’t often easy. There were times that there’s a need to sacrifice what we value but what important is that the values we get from doing so. And also, realizing that all we encountered helped us to stand where we are at this moment. Being positive, I guess is the most vital thing we need to survive all the hardships we might get as we travel on the road of life. Positivity is one of the key in achieving our sweet summer salad in which I equate to HAPPINESS.

Memory Mosaic

Alone

..I'm tired...
so tired...







life goes on....on and on and on and on and.....

...and as life goes on,
things will be BETTER!



(OST: BOB the BUllDER "yes we can!" hehe)

Now What?

I have so many things in mind that I want to tell but I don't know where I will start.

There are a lot of things happening and I don't know if I can cope up. I don't know. There are lots of things to say but my mind is beginning to be empty again. I don't know which part makes me happy and I don't know which make me feel lonely. I miss a lot of people. Maybe that's why.

I feel like I’m such a loser. I can’t define what makes me happy even though I know that I’m on the right track. But still, I feel like I left so many things behind. I wonder if this really is me. Things have changed. Many things are not the same as before and I can’t ignore that fact.

At times I may be very happy and I know that those smiles and laughter are true but there’s a part in me that says “you’re not complete”. Again, emptiness becomes my companion though, I know, my friends won’t leave me. Sometimes, I just see myself staring at nothing because I don’t know what to think and what to feel on that very moment. Yes, there are lots of things to say…better left unsaid.

I’ve been really dramatic these past few days and I can blame myself for that. Now what??!

Song For You

"A little bit" by my super fave acoustic band M.Y.M.P.

i was kinda hesitant to tell you
should i let you know
i was never really like this before
need i say more

or maybe I'm confused when you are near me
i don't know what to do or i should be

there's only one thing in my mind
that's you and me

refrain:
I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
oh, i need a cure
just little bit of you
and i will fall...

I'm always on the run to see you
would you allow me to
it wasn't my intention to hurt you
this feeling is true

or maybe I'm confused when you are near me
i don't know what to do or i should be

there's only one thing in my mind
that's you and me...

refrain:
I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
oh, i need a cure
just little bit of you
and i will fall...

When Mind and Heart Clash

Today is February 12. Tomorrow will be Friday the 13th and the next will be Valentine’s Day which falls on Saturday for this year. I have classes for that day – algebra and accounting – and obviously, it will be a tough day for it’s a whole day of mathematics. Well honestly, I want to be busy that day because I want to forget the coldness that I am feeling right now. (?) I don’t know really if what’s happening to me. Maybe one of my good friends is correct. I may be a bitter.

I said to myself that I need to blog this thing which is right now I’m doing. I don’t care if someone reads this and will discover something about me, if this can make me feel even better then why not?

I must admit, I’ve been thinking of only one person for a couple of months now. I can’t forget that person. He’s been flashing in and out of my mind every now and then. But actually I rarely see him in school since I’ve met him. And I find him a bit mysterious that I’ve become interested about him. Oh no, is it another crush? Rushed crush? Well, maybe not because at first it didn’t came to me too obvious until I saw myself very happy whenever I spot him somewhere in the campus. I don’t want to entertain the idea but I can’t help it. I must be in a fairy land where I thought I could live happily ever after.

I’ve been emoting like this for a week. I’ve been going crazy for different thoughts of him come into my mind. I don’t know if this is right. Neither do I know what he’s thinking about me nor if he does even care about me. I’m going crazy and stupid. My friend says, I should stop because it’s not helping me at all. I always say to myself as well, “asa ka pa, as if naman may pag-asa talaga”. But he’s really getting into my nerves and I can’t take him out of my system. I feel like there’s something good ahead for the both of us but what is that, and how can it start if all I know is I am the one who’s been only dreaming of him all this time. Actually, he also appears in my dreams at night and I don’t want that because when I wake up in the morning I simply regret the fact that it’s only a dream. (!!!) I can’t take this feeling any longer (is that a song?). I am hurt by my stupid self thinking of and hoping for the things that won’t gonna happen. It hurts to see myself with an emotion that is so unbearable.

I’ve never been so helpless and hopeless before. I hate this feeling. But what can I do? Whenever he looks and smiles at me, all the shattered pieces of my heart bring back to its form and my despair suddenly turns into an unquantifiable joy. And I’ve never been so “abnormal” like this.

Can someone please tell me what is it that keeps me being like this? What do you call this thing? And please, can someone tell me if what I am feeling is right because it’s getting harder and harder for me. What can I do to simplify my feelings without telling him so? Is there any way? If this is just a plain crush, why am I feeling inexplicable emotions…?

I always ask myself, “when will I be happy?”