Song For You

"A little bit" by my super fave acoustic band M.Y.M.P.

i was kinda hesitant to tell you
should i let you know
i was never really like this before
need i say more

or maybe I'm confused when you are near me
i don't know what to do or i should be

there's only one thing in my mind
that's you and me

refrain:
I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
oh, i need a cure
just little bit of you
and i will fall...

I'm always on the run to see you
would you allow me to
it wasn't my intention to hurt you
this feeling is true

or maybe I'm confused when you are near me
i don't know what to do or i should be

there's only one thing in my mind
that's you and me...

refrain:
I'm a little bit of crazy
I'm a little bit of a fool
I'm a little bit of lonely
I'm a little bit of all
oh, i need a cure
just little bit of you
and i will fall...

When Mind and Heart Clash

Today is February 12. Tomorrow will be Friday the 13th and the next will be Valentine’s Day which falls on Saturday for this year. I have classes for that day – algebra and accounting – and obviously, it will be a tough day for it’s a whole day of mathematics. Well honestly, I want to be busy that day because I want to forget the coldness that I am feeling right now. (?) I don’t know really if what’s happening to me. Maybe one of my good friends is correct. I may be a bitter.

I said to myself that I need to blog this thing which is right now I’m doing. I don’t care if someone reads this and will discover something about me, if this can make me feel even better then why not?

I must admit, I’ve been thinking of only one person for a couple of months now. I can’t forget that person. He’s been flashing in and out of my mind every now and then. But actually I rarely see him in school since I’ve met him. And I find him a bit mysterious that I’ve become interested about him. Oh no, is it another crush? Rushed crush? Well, maybe not because at first it didn’t came to me too obvious until I saw myself very happy whenever I spot him somewhere in the campus. I don’t want to entertain the idea but I can’t help it. I must be in a fairy land where I thought I could live happily ever after.

I’ve been emoting like this for a week. I’ve been going crazy for different thoughts of him come into my mind. I don’t know if this is right. Neither do I know what he’s thinking about me nor if he does even care about me. I’m going crazy and stupid. My friend says, I should stop because it’s not helping me at all. I always say to myself as well, “asa ka pa, as if naman may pag-asa talaga”. But he’s really getting into my nerves and I can’t take him out of my system. I feel like there’s something good ahead for the both of us but what is that, and how can it start if all I know is I am the one who’s been only dreaming of him all this time. Actually, he also appears in my dreams at night and I don’t want that because when I wake up in the morning I simply regret the fact that it’s only a dream. (!!!) I can’t take this feeling any longer (is that a song?). I am hurt by my stupid self thinking of and hoping for the things that won’t gonna happen. It hurts to see myself with an emotion that is so unbearable.

I’ve never been so helpless and hopeless before. I hate this feeling. But what can I do? Whenever he looks and smiles at me, all the shattered pieces of my heart bring back to its form and my despair suddenly turns into an unquantifiable joy. And I’ve never been so “abnormal” like this.

Can someone please tell me what is it that keeps me being like this? What do you call this thing? And please, can someone tell me if what I am feeling is right because it’s getting harder and harder for me. What can I do to simplify my feelings without telling him so? Is there any way? If this is just a plain crush, why am I feeling inexplicable emotions…?

I always ask myself, “when will I be happy?”

A Rare Instance

Passed six p.m., just before I got home, I saw this wonderful, majestic view. It’s not always that I see this kind of picture in the sky.

At that time, the sun is about to sleep and darkness is about to rise. Can you imagine how do they look like?

The sky’s a colorful pastel, made of yellow, orange, red, pink, blue and violet hues. How really they are perfectly combined! You can see the transition of the day sky slowly changing into night.. it’s a scene.. so so romantic. If you were also there in my place at that time ( I was inside the jeepney going to our home, and I was gazing outside the rectangular window, thinking of so many things when that picture mesmerized me) you’ll also be amazed. And also try to imagine the perfect shapes of the clouds and their cheerful complexion. It’s like they were there accordingly and were put there precisely where they should be.

Too bad, I wasn't able to take a camera shot.

Try to picture this. The subject is the clouds and the background’s the shade of the colors mentioned earlier. And another important element, the grass below that jams with the cool wind has improved the scenery. Everything’s very novel. It’s like it had been drawn to look that splendid. The whole frame is composed of wild grass that dances as the wind blows and the multihued sky looking cheerful to everyone who sees it.

It’s refreshing to the eyes to see such bliss of nature.



The nature has gifts. They come in surprises. You’ll never know when or where, and what you are doing then.

If we’re going to waste those things that she brings to us, she will no longer give us also this kind of pleasure. It’s everyone’s lost if we don’t conserve her natural beauty, thus, she will die and dwell in her own fortress.

Night

A glowing evening sky

filled by starlight

as romantic as a ship above the sea

under the silence of the moonlight

beneath that magic of exemptional mystery

yet full of simplicity

and overflowing sincerity...

Buhay Kabataan

Maingay.

Kanya-kanyang kwentuhan

Kanya-kanyang kumpulan

'yung iba naman

walang pakialam

basta makatulog lang

ang iba naman masabi lang

pikit-mata,walang kibuan

i-pod lang pala ang pinapakiggan

ganyan ang takbo

sa bawat araw ng pagpasok ko

dahil isa rin ako sa mga 'to

kanya-kanyang daldalan

hindi naman maintindihan

sabay-sabay kasi ang usapan

sila-sila nagtatawanan

ang saya nila tingnan?

mga kalalakihan at kababaihan

mapa-t.v., mapa-techie, mga kanta sa mp3

pati 'yung crew dun sa jollibee

lahat pinag-uusapan

ang mga kabataan nga naman

kay rami ng nalalaman

'pag dumating ang di inaasam

'pag naantala ang kasiyahan

magpapalusot, magtatago

aalis, lalayas

bad trip nga naman

pero kammusta naman

lahat 'yan ay bahagi ng kabataan

sana'y isiksik sa ating kamalayan

na tayo'y hindi puro sarap lang

mag-enjoy at umalalay

magsaya at umagapay

napakarami pang dapat matutunan

kaya dapat hinay-hinay lang

huwag kumaripas

at harapin ang 'yong namamalas

steady lang kumbaga

para pagdating ng panahon...

Ikaw na!

There's Always More to Learn

"I have never let my schooling interfere with my education" - Mark Twain

This is how I interpret the above quote... if someone has already finished his studies, this doesn't mean that his education should also stop there.

School is a place wherein we acquire knowledge for it offers us formal education. Formal in the sense of we're being gathered in a room that our professors, mentors, or teachers give us information to ponder. They teach us how to solve problems and how things are to be done but they don’t teach us how it works. It should be ourselves that must know what to do base on what they have taught us. They don't serve us everything and that we should be seeking for some additional information hence we should be thankful about it- that our parents send us to an academy to have learning. After we have finished our studies in school, that's the best time for application on the career we chose to take and use what we have learned but that point in time does not end our education. Education may not only be attained inside our campuses. We should take it as a lifetime assignment. "Learning has no boundaries". It is a continuous act and in life there really is so much more to learn in a wider and broader reality. Likewise, let me say that our school education is just a "sneak-peek" of the many concepts that we may encounter in the real world. So accept the fact that our colleges require us to take down notes and pass the exams because we will still be doing it in facing the harder triumphs outside. If we open ourselves to the unlimited sources of wisdom in our surroundings, even if we're not in school, life will be as exciting as that of the students.

In addition to the statement of Mark Twain, let also live by the two quotable quotes that would inspire us to continue learning: “Education is a process… Education is growth… Education is, not a preparation for life; education is life itself.” (John Dewey)
“You can not teach a man anything; you can only help him find it within himself.” (Galileo)

Like Mark Twain and all the other successful individuals, let us also not limit ourselves to the four walls and four corners of our classrooms. Therefore we must go beyond that in order to be more educated. We have all the chances because it is never too late and we also have our choices if we want to.

The GAZETTE orientation

..it was last July 6, 2008 at Tagaytay picnic grove..

that day, i was so excited because i know it would be an enjoyable trip with my co-apprentices and of course with our superiors- ate ann,kuya ryan, kuya lee, ate gemms, kuya lj, kuya jv, and kuya paul. i was right. it surely was an exciting activity not just because of the knowledge that we gained but also with the new friends that we've met.

we had a seminar about news, feature, culture, and sports writings and with photo journalism as well which i find very interesting. each of our superiors gave us lectures and gave us inspiring words. as an aspiring "writer", i jot down notes that i know will be of big help to me as i am progressing on this field. there were also group activities that developed our social skills with our newly- found friends. luckily, because of team effort, and cooperation, our group won,which we call "bombang-tiktik"( i really can't forget this name from ate joan, hehehe), after those tiring yet fun activities.

and one thing more that i've loved about the orientation, everything's no charge...just for us to learn.the foods, really delicious!!!!

i hope there's next time. thanks to you ates and kuyas! hello new friends!!!